Ed and I met in college. We shared a few classes together because we were both Literature majors. He tried a couple times to hang out with me, but being shy and socially awkward I kind of just blew him off. (Yeah, I am a jerk lol.)
He once asked me if I wanted to ride with him to a play we needed to attend for one of our classes. I never got back to him. He LOVES to tell that story, and of course I hate it because it was not my finest moment. I was also engaged at the time so there’s that…I didn’t really know how to respond, but I did think he was really attractive, intelligent, and always speaking the truth, even if it was unfavorable. I liked him because it felt like he was confident and everything I was not.
After my last full year of school (I had to take an extra semester for a couple of credits) I looked him up on Facebook and friended him. I thought nothing of it at the time. Just like friending an acquaintance. Then one day he messaged me. Over the summer we talked a lot over FB messenger all through the late hours of the night. We got really close.
When fall came back around we started hanging out a couple times just on campus/locally, just friends, no lines crossed (I was still engaged…you guys probably think I am awful). When I realized I was developing feelings and I just could no longer see a future with my fiancé (we’d been having problems for a while before all this) I broke things off.
Ed was living in Philly during that last semester (me in NJ). He invited me to a party at his house. I said yes and he picked me up. He had an 80’s Mercedes at the time which was seriously such a cool car. (Not that it would have mattered lol, but it was some extra cool points I guess.) At the party he spent the whole night with me. I really felt comfortable because of that because I do get really bad social anxiety, and this was way out of my comfort zone because I didn’t know anyone else there. And I could tell he wanted to be with me so it wasn’t forced.
There were so many fun/stupid moments from that night I remember. Some drama went down in the house so we ended up walking around the city. We found a McDonald’s and got smoothies. That night was our first kiss too. I stayed the night. I didn’t really want to leave honestly but I had to.
We have been together over 10 years, are on our second house, and I cannot imagine life without him.
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